seantime

She wasn’t there. My life has lost all meaning, the sun has left the sky and all is darkness, and so on and so forth.

• Bought a Thermarest prolite from REI yesterday. It’s kind of expensive, but the accumulation of a set of backpacking gear has begun.
• Finally got around to watching Delicatessen. Now, the only Jeunet movie I haven’t seen is Alien: Resurrection. Maybe I shouldn’t have saved that for the last. Micmacs looks like it’ll be pretty good.
• It’s the first day of the quarter. I still don’t know what to take. All I know is that social dance is going to be a frightening experience.

• I remember there used to be a time when I actually enjoyed spring break. Now, it’s more torturous to have a week off and lose the sense of schedule and academic inertia. Maybe it’s a bad idea to have so much idle time, and that I should take actual vacations instead of sitting around with no one to talk to. It’s times like these when I feel particularly trapped and apathetic.
• Current oldies obsession: “Calendar Girl” — Neil Sedaka. I think I’m a sucker for songs that have subdivisions-of-the-year-as-a-thinly-veiled-metaphor-for-eternal-love because “I Just Called to Say I Love You” (Stevie Wonder) is also pretty great.
• Had my first private lesson yesterday, and today I’ve felt tired and broke. But it instilled some confidence and hopefully will help push me over this frustrating plateau I’ve been on the past few months.
• Can’t wait for school to start again, although I’ll be a little bit sad that it’s the last quarter. I still don’t know what classes to take, but at least there’s the hope that tp girl will return.
• Picked up the violin for the first time in a while. It’s funny how some things come back quickly, and others seem to be lost forever. I don’t know why the fingering seems a lot easier to recall than the bowing.

• Current oldies obsession: “To Know Him Is to Love Him” — Teddy Bears.
• Finished grading finals. It’s amazing how quickly I forget how painful it is to spend ~20 hours on such a monotonous task.
• Speaking of how quickly I forget, went to get McDonald’s breakfast, which did not sit well in stomach.
• Evidently a week is not complete for me unless I take a ballet class that’s way above my abilities. I tried out the intermediate class and it was pretty much a massacre, yet fun in that sense that doesn’t really make sense.
• It’s going to be another boring spring break. I really have no idea where to go or what to do. I guess I can keep watching Highlander: The Animated Series. It’s kind of nice that all these old cartoons I used to watch are now on DVD.
• I also need to figure out some vacation plans for post-graduation and pre-work. Assuming Scandinavia doesn’t work out, does anyone want to take a 2-week transcontinental train trip?

• Finals week approaches. This quarter went by rather quickly. I’m a little sad that the back-to-back ballet classes are over. I hope that tp girl will be taking intermediate ballet next quarter. Also, I need to figure out what class(es) to take next quarter, as well.
• Not the most opportune time to get a severe bout of lovesickness, though perhaps there never is. It is crippling my ability to study; good thing I only have one final.
• Senioritis version 3 also set in rather quickly after finding a job. I don’t think I gained much of any intellectual momentum this quarter, which made doing homework and taking tests rather laborious.
• Just spent 2 hours listening to songs by Lesley Gore. She’s a pretty good singer. “You Don’t Own Me” is inching up the play count list.
• I also spent 3 hours trying to read Ulysses and managed to only read 15 pages. After roughly 3 years, I’m halfway through the book. There are really delicious phrases and sentences in it, but for the life of me I can’t seem to focus on reading it for any extended period of time.